Transcipt of sermon ‘Hope for a broken world’

 

St Oswald’s Rugby 16^th Oct 2022

(Baptism of Ambrose and Asa Naish)

‘Hope for a broken world’ – Luke 5: 17-26

During the length of this Service 60 men across the world will have died by suicide.

On the 1^st January of this year a young man, who had recently returned home to the family farm having just completed his studies at Agricultural College, in the early hours told his parents he was going out.  They thought he might be giving a friend a lift. Tragically he was discovered dead later having died by suicide. He was 21.

In Stafford Prison there are notices in several prominent places that say, ‘we do not release ex-offenders, but community members back into the community.’  Which is a laudable idea except Stafford Prison is for male sex offenders. Would they really be welcomed back into the community. Would we welcome them into the Church community? As a Volunteer with Prison Fellowship, I preached several times on a Sunday morning in the Prison Chapel. The lead Chaplain, Jo and I were chatting about support structures upon release. She told me of one resident who had been released, reoffended, and brought back into prison. He admitted that prison was the best place for him so that others would be safe from him, and he would be safe from himself.  The revolving door syndrome is a real issue across all prisons. 

In Greenwich, London, there are areas of real deprivation and a strong gang culture. A mild-mannered man from Gloucester called Nick Russel has chosen to live there, and indeed has been ministering in this part of London for a good number of years now. Nick is a Church Army Evangelist and heads up the Greenwich Mission Centre. Into a gang culture that says the only hope of surviving and being safe is to join a gang, into an area with seriously dysfunctional families, Nick and the team are trying to offer a different narrative, to offer a different hope.  

 Born in 1905, Victor Frankl was an Austrian psychiatrist. During World War II he spent three years at Auschwitz, Dachau, and other concentration camps. In his bestselling book, Man’s Search for Meaning, Frankl’s autobiographical testament of his time in Auschwitz, he talks about seeing the light of hope go from men’s eyes.  

He wrote - “Those who know how close the connection is between the state of mind of a man­, ­his courage and hope, or lack of them­ ­and the state of immunity of his body will understand that sudden loss of hope and courage can have a deadly effect”.

 

To illustrate his point Frankl details for us his theory on the record high death rate in Auschwitz during Christmas 1944 to New Year’s 1945: that prisoners died because they had expected to be home before Christmas. When they realized this was not to be they completely lost hope in life beyond the concentration camp. 

Having hope in life is very serious – it is a matter of life and death!

In our Gospel story we are told about a group of friends one of whom was a paralytic and unable to walk.  The situation for their paralytic friend probably looked hopeless. But they hear about Jesus and the things he is doing and saying.  So, they carry their friend to Jesus. But getting him through the press of the crowd was hopeless. They hit upon another plan. Most of the buildings at this time had flat roofs, often serving as an extra outdoor space, sometimes with an outside staircase.  Up they go with their friend being carried on a stretcher. They begin to make a hole in the roof, and when it was big enough, they lowered their friend down at the feet of Jesus.

Let that thought and image enter your mind and settle in your heart.

Collectively they took their burden of hopelessness and laid it down at Jesus’ feet.

Low at his feet lay thy burden of carefulness,
high on his heart he will bear it for thee,
and comfort thy sorrows, and answer thy prayerfulness,
guiding thy steps as may best for thee be.

Jesus responds by saying, ‘friend, your sins are forgiven.’

Now in the crowd are Pharisee’s and teachers of the law and they knew as everyone else would have known, that forgiveness came only from God mediated by the Priests and in some cases only by the High Priest. Jesus was not a Priest or of the Levitical tribe of Priest. The Pharisee’s are right in what they say as according to the law, tradition and Scripture stretching back thousands of years. However, to receive such forgiveness, he would have to travel 120 miles to Jerusalem and offer a sacrificial animal. How on earth was a paralytic person supposed to do that.

This is an important point Luke is making in his telling of the Jesus story.

But time prevents us from delving deeper into this today.

But note Jesus’ response, “But that you might know that the Son of Man has authority on earth to forgive sins” – he said to the paralysed man, “get up, take up your mat and go home.”

The Son of Man and having authority referenced here is from Daniel 7: 13-14

 
“In my vision at night I looked, and there before me was one like a son of man, coming with the clouds of heaven. He approached the Ancient of Days and was led into his presence.  He was given authority, glory, and sovereign power; all nations and peoples of every language worshiped him. His dominion is an everlasting dominion that will not pass away, and his kingdom is one that will never be destroyed.

(And check out Mathew 28.18.)

Jesus is demonstrating his authority as the hope of all Israel, the promised Royal Priest King who would fulfil all of God’s promises.

Jesus brings hope, light and life into the world.

And it is into the company of Jesus’ followers that Anna and Murray have brought Ambrose and Asa to be baptised today. So that a seed of hope may be planted in the lives of Ambrose and Asa and that they may grow in their love and knowledge of God and have an ongoing hope in their lives going forward.

But note that after Jesus’ offers forgiveness, he tells the man to walk. To walk into a new life freed from whatever it was that was causing his paralyses, possibly something arising out of guilt carried for years until it brought on the paralysis. What we today would refer to as psychosomatic paralysis.  Hence Jesus dealing with that issue.

Both Ambrose and Asa will have to actualise the promises made on their behalf today. In due course they will have to choose whether they will continue to look to Jesus as their one true hope.

Lying at the feet of Jesus and receiving forgiveness of our sins is only the start. We are then invited to get up and go live a life that speaks of the hope we carry.

That through his crucifixion, death, resurrection, and ascension, King Jesus reigns and that - His dominion is an everlasting dominion that will not pass away, and his kingdom is one that will never be destroyed.

As we close let me leave you with these related questions…

1)              Have you knelt before Jesus and known his forgiveness?

Have you stood up and walked into a new life with hope in your heart?

 If you have never done that you can do it today, here this morning

And then thirdly  whom do you know, or what situation are you are aware of, that appears to be hopeless?  

 

If we are we weak and heavy laden,

cumbered with a load of care?

The Precious Saviour is still our refuge

Let’s take it to the Lord in prayer!

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Prison's Week 2022

Address at St Oswald's, Rugby Tuesday 11th October 2022

Luke 17: 11-19

This is day three of Prisons Week that began on Sunday with a reflection on our Gospel reading.

Prison Week has now been running for nearly fifty years and involves a wide number of charities engaged in prison ministry and invites people to pray for their work.

Just how many people have we in our prisons?

According to the briefing report of Population and Capacity on Friday 30 September 2022          

Population                                               81,309

Useable Operational Capacity                 83,723

Population in male estate                        78,130

Population in female estate                       3,179

Home Detention Curfew caseload             2,055

In 2019 England and Wales had the largest prison population in Western Europe.

Our Gospel reading today helps us to understand something of this ministry and the men and woman in our prisons.

In ancient Israel, the setting for the story Luke brings us about these ten lepers, not much was known about leprosy other than it was much to be feared. Something that continued into the modern era until we understood it better and began to find ways of helping.

Therefore, any skin disease was highly suspect and enough to have you banished from the community.

Remembering that at this time you lived and died by your community.

It wasn’t that you went and visited your mum occasionally.

Your community was everything and this was at a deeper level still for the God’s covenant people, the Israelites.

Being banished from the community was a massive issue.

Those locked away in our prisons often find themselves treated like lepers. Little thought is given to their crime, their background and in some cases, whether there may have been a miscarriage of justice.

We can so easily declare them as prisoners, lumping them all together.

Yet God sees each and every one of them, and God loves each and every one of them.

And if they cry out, as a number of them do, ‘Jesus, Master, have pity on me’ then they find new hope, new peace, and a new direction in their lives.

All around the inside Stafford Prison written up on the walls in various places are these words…

‘We do not release ex-offenders, but community members back into the community.’

That’s a tough call because Stafford is a sex offender prison.

O how easy it is to sit in judgment on such people and others in prison.

We need to heed the word of Paul in the Letter to the Romans as he reminds us that ‘we all fall short of the glory of God.’

Of the many things I learned from my visit into Stafford prisons is that the residents are very aware of their fallenness, of their sins.

And they are very aware that they are social pariahs. And I get that, especially if it was my son or daughter or grandchild who had been abused. Although I may not fully understand the pain of those whose friend or family have been violated by a sex offender, never having experienced it, I can imagine something of their pain and anger and their wanting to rip their heads off. And in so doing they sit in very company with the Psalmists. But that doesn’t bring healing and wholeness, only more bitterness and isolation.

One of the courses the Prison Fellowship have been running now for some years is the Sycamore Course. This seeks to bring offenders to a place of recognising their crime and the damage caused.

Another very important initiative is Angel Tree...

However, it is stating the obvious, but for such initiatives to operate it takes people, often Volunteers, and money for the materials, etc.  

But, as some say, and as I have heard it said, ‘lock them up, throw away the key and forget about them.’

Could we really accept such a thought – as God’s people, surely no one is beyond His reach, no one beyond His love, no one beyond His hope and no one beyond the possibility of reconciliation and restoration.

However, this will mean engaging with the lepers, those who we deem are unclean and unfit to live in our communities.

As these men cried out to Jesus for him to have pity on them his response was, ‘Go and show yourself to the priest’ – and we are told it was as they went, they were healed.

Note that order, go – and as they went in faith and obedience, they received their healing.

There are some other fascinating aspects to this story – ‘go and show yourself to the priest’ would have made a lot of sense to the Jews, which by inference we deem nine of the men to be, but that would not have worked for the Samaritan. In the eyes of the Covenant People of God, we might say he was doubly excluded, as a leper and as a Samaritan.

It maybe that the others were so keen to be on their way back to their communities, back to their families, and to go through the necessary rituals of being declared clean. Released from their prison and exclusion, in their eagerness they forgot to say thank you.

We might also reflect on what kind of welcome back into the community they received. Some may have continued to be unsure and suspicious.

Much like those who are released back into our communities today having served their prison sentence. They continue to be viewed with suspicion by some and continue to carry the taint of having been inside.

It is the idea of having an attitude of gratitude that forms the theme for this year’s Prisons Week.

We are invited to reflect on what we are thankful for. Now you might think that prisoner do not have a lot to be thankful for. However, for them, it is often the small things that we so often take for granted. A kind word, a helpful letter, a phone call, a visit. And an opportunity to ring the Prayer Line, set up by Prison Fellowship, and make a prayer request.

And it is in these prayers that I receive and share amongst our Group that we can begin to hear the authentic voice of prisoners.

Let me read you just a few Prayer Line Requests:

Anon asks 4 times for us to pray for him and his family - he says they are all are being hassled by Satanists and witches.

R feels he is being unjustly treated and falsely imprisoned. He asks for prayer and for an Anglican chaplain to visit him with communion.

C asks us to pray his wife will realise that what she is doing is wrong. C has loved his wife unconditionally for the last 10 years of his life and doesn’t understand her behaviour. 

C (2) is desperate to see his kids. He is not coping in prison for something he didn’t do.

Luke has placed this story amongst a cluster of stories about who is in and who is out, Lazarus and the rich man, the Pharisee and the sinner. This all sits within a large section of Luke’s Gospel as part of Jesus’ long winding journey to Jerusalem. And in Jerusalem he will be taken prisoner, become falsely accused, put in prison, and then executed. Jesus knows what it’s like to be social pariah, to be rejected.

If you are feeling encouraged to support people in prison, how might you respond?

Well Prisons Week is a great opportunity to pray through the Prisons Week prayers and I have put copies of these at the back of Church.

You could sign-up to pray for people in prison with the Prison Fellowship Prayer Diary sent by email.

You can also get involved in supporting people in prison by becoming a Prison Fellowship volunteer and being part of the Rugby Prison Fellowship Group.  And I am more than happy to include you in the Prayer Line WhatsApp group or email list for the weekly digest.

Prison Fellowship - We believe no one is beyond hope.

“Continue to remember those in prison as if you were together with them in prison, and those who are mistreated as if you yourselves were suffering.” Hebrews 13: 3  

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'Singing with Mary and Elizabeth' ~ short reflection upon the death of Her Majesty Queen Elizabeth 11

Sunday 18^th September 2022 - the Eve of Queen’s Elizabeth 11 being laid to rest.  

Reading Luke 1: 39-56

On the day the Queen died (8^th September) the Church was celebrating ‘The Feast of the Birthday of the Blessed Virgin Mary.’

Now of course we don’t know when Mary was born. And yet it gives us an opportunity to reflect that for Jesus to be borne of a woman, that woman needed to be born.

Picking up words from Mary’s song we see that this was part of God’s plan and purpose.

“He has helped his servant Israel, remembering to be merciful to Abraham and his descendants forever, just as he promised our ancestors.”

Reflect on Mary as a young girl receiving this outstanding message and onerous responsibility and her response…

 “I am the Lord’s servant,” Mary answered. “May your word to me be fulfilled.” Then the angel left her.”

Does this not remind us of Princess Elizabeth as a young woman being told she was being called to the highest office within the United Kingdom of Great Britain.

We have been hearing again of her promise to fulfil and accept this calling to the best of her ability for the rest of her life.

Our reading recalls Mary’s visit to Elizabeth, no doubt to receive some comfort and wisdom.

Again, we know that Queen Elizabeth 11 took advice from her mother.

And Elizabeth, Mary’s cousin, as an older woman was also pregnant.  As an older woman she was fulfilling God’s call upon her life. She had said her own yes, just as Mary had.  Once more we see evidence of God’s plans and purposes being worked out.

We have witnessed Queen Elizabeth 11 continued dedication to duty and her faithfulness to her Christian faith as an older woman.

Luke continues his Gospel with the story with Jesus’ birth and then his being presented in the temple according to the law.

Here we meet the aged Simeon who words are known to many of us in Latin, Nunc Dimittus, (Song of Simeon) and are part of Evensong in the Church of England and often used at funerals.

“Lord, now let your servant go in peace; your word has been fulfilled: my own eyes have seen the salvation which you prepared in the sight of every people, a light to reveal you to the nations and the glory of your people Israel.”

And here we meet the aged prophet Anna who spent many years in the temple and who upon seeing Jesus began to sing God’s praises and speak about this child and what he would accomplish.

Increasingly as the Queen grew older, we witnessed a growing acknowledgement of how much her faith in Jesus meant to her. How much she looked to God for guidance.  This was particularly noticeable in her Christmass broadcasts.

The one book the Queen endorsed was ‘The Servant Queen and the King she serves’ (still available from the Bible Society - The Servant Queen and the King she serves - Shop - Bible Society)

The Blessed Virgin Mary, her cousin Elizabeth, Simeon and Anna and Her Majesty Queen Elizabeth 11 – all these people may seem far removed from us.

However, God’s plans and purposes work through all those who perhaps with fear and trembling say with Mary, ^“I am the Lord’s servant, may your word to me be fulfilled.”  

‘You are a unique and irreplaceable actor in the drama of human history, and Jesus Christ has need of you to make known his salvific work in this particular place and at this particular moment in history.’  Michael Quoist ‘The Christian Response’

The Scriptures makes it manifestly clear that God seeks to work out his plans and purposes through the human medium.  We are invited to participate in the work of the redemption of the cosmos, the establishment of God’s Kingdom come upon earth.

Put simply, we will be playing a part or playing apart.

C.S. Lewes put it this way, ‘There are only two kinds of people in the end: those who say to God, "Thy will be done," and those to whom God says, in the end, "Thy will be done" C S Lewes The Great Divorce (1945)

A Prayer of St Benedict (480-547)

Gracious and holy Father, please give me:

intellect to understand you;
reason to discern you;
diligence to seek you;
wisdom to find you;
a spirit to know you;
a heart to meditate upon you;
ears to hear you;
eyes to see you;
a tongue to proclaim you;
a way of life pleasing to you;
patience to wait for you;
and perseverance to look for you.

Grant me:
a perfect end,
your holy presence.
A blessed resurrection,
And life everlasting.

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'Living Sacrifice' - transcript of sermon St Oswald's Rugby 10th July 2022

                     Sermon – 10^th July 2022 St Oswald’s – 10.30am Eucharist

Roman’s 12. 1-8 ‘Living Sacrifice’

‘Sacrifice’ – what images does that word suggest to you?

At the extreme level we probably think about the ultimate sacrifice. That of sacrificing a life so that someone else might live.

Yet at the other end of the spectrum if we think about it, there are countless sacrifices we all make every day to enable us to function as a human community and the world around us.

On Wednesday last I spent a couple of hours volunteering with Riding for the Disabled.

I made a sacrifice of my time. I could have chosen to spend my time on something else, even indulging myself.

I know if I were to ask you would all be able to tell a similar story.

We sacrifice our time for our children or grandchildren.

We sacrifice where we would like to live.

We sacrifice careers to care for people or move hundreds of miles to look after an elderly parent.

If we are alert enough, we may even sacrifice a bit of time and road space to enable someone else to get on their way.

And the world around us.

We sacrifice convenience so that we may do less damage to the environment.

I know in this community there are those who sacrifice their time and talents to clean up litter, weed and help to make the streets and back alleys much more pleasant to walk down.

Sacrifice is built into the warp and weft of life.

And sacrifice is writ large throughout all of Scripture.

I have recently been listening to a series of podcasts from the Bible Project exploring the larger movements and motifs in the Old Testament.

The last couple of podcasts have been diving deep into the Book of Leviticus and the sacrificial system.  

I can’t say I have fully grasped all the nuances that are presented but there are two big take-aways for me.

One is obvious but certainly something that I need to be reminded about regularly.

That Jesus, Paul and all those who contributed to what became the New Testament, are steeped in the practise of sacrifice. What we may want to call the liturgical practises of sacrifices rather than the type of sacrifices we have already considered.

That is why it is important to gain some understanding of the sacrificial system we find described in the Old Testament.

But don’t worry, I am not planning on a three hour lecture this morning. That’s way beyond my pay grade anyway.

That’s your homework as we continue to grapple with God’s Big Story.

The second take-away is the very nature of the sacrifices.

This is highly significant and sets the tenure for all references to sacrifices throughout Scripture.

It not only sets the tenure it also sets Israel apart from other nations, societies and cultures and their sacrificial systems and practices.

Question – what is the first blood sacrifice we read about in Scripture?

Genesis 3:21 ‘The LORD God made garments of skin for Adam and his wife and clothed them.’

What is the last blood sacrifice we read about in Scripture?

     That of the Lamb of God, Jesus.

So, what’s the important difference between the sacrificial system of the Israelites and that of other nations?  

In most contexts and cultures sacrifices were offered as a means of appeasing or placating god or gods or spirits or whatever it was you believed ordered the world or it variant parts.

It was often thought that these god’s and spirits were capricious and malevolent.

You never quite knew if the gods were going to help or hinder you. Whether you would get a good harvest or safe travel or safe delivery of a baby.

Life was focussed on seeking to curry favour from the gods or spirits through a variety of sacrifices, and we know that included human sacrifices including child sacrifices.

What’s different about the Israelites then?

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. John 3.16

Think back to God providing clothes for Adam and Eve – consider that God gave them these clothes to cover over their naked disobedience. 

Think of Abraham being tested by God and taking his son Isaac to offer him up as a sacrifice. Isaac said, father I see wood and fire for the sacrifice, but no lamb. To which Abraham replied, ‘God himself will provide the lamb for the sacrifice.’

Consider that God gave his one and only son…

The sacrificial system outlined in Leviticus and elsewhere is a gift of grace, mercy, love, and forgiveness initiated by God.

It is given to us as means by which we can enter into God’s presence.

One of the very important and overriding motifs in Scripture is that God desires to live amongst his creation and alongside humans.  Working in partnership to push back the chaos and establish God’s good order and life in abundance.

By their disobedience Adam and Eve step outside this relationship. As a result, they are banished from the Garden in Eden and cherubim and a flaming sword bar the way back to the Tree of Life.    

In mercy God clothes them with skins – blood shed to cover over their sin and failure to pass the test.

Some years I work for Spillers as an Animal Technician at a Food and Nutritional Centre sited just outside Newmarket.

One of the units was the SPF Unit – Specific Pathogen Free.  In this Unit were housed mice and rats kept in strict laboratory conditions. To enter the Unit, you had to remove all your clothes, put on a special boiler suit, and then step over a barrier.

I am sure you will be able to think of lots of other examples where you must wear specific clothing to enter a certain place or environment.

Now recall the ways in which God’s presence is talked about, particularly in the Old Testament. God is a consuming fire, all powerful, mountains shake, thunderstorms and lighting crack.  This is not a God whom you can simply walk up to and say, hello how are you doing.

As an aside I wonder if we are too casual sometimes about our approach to God. 

The sacrificial system outlined in Leviticus was first and foremost offered as a way of enabling God’s covenant people to enter into communion with God.

It was not trying to appease an angry god, or a capricious god.

The Lord says, “I do not want all these sacrifices. I have had enough of your burnt sacrifices of male sheep and fat from fine animals. I am not pleased by the blood of bulls, lambs, and goats. Isaiah 1.11

I want you to show love, not offer sacrifices. I want you to know me more than I want burnt offerings. Hosea 6.6

Hold all of this in mind and listen again to the first couple of verses of our reading this morning…

 Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. ² Do not conform to the pattern of this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing, and perfect will.

The first point to make is to remind ourselves that sacrifices in their Scriptural context are a mediation of grace – a gift from God so that we may enter into His presence.

God saved you by his grace when you believed. And you can’t take credit for this; it is a gift from God. Ephesians 2.8

Remember the story of Ruth. Elimelech because of a famine went to live amongst the Moabites with his wife Naomi. First Elimelech died, and then both of her sons who had married Moabite women also died.

Naomi decides to head back home to Judah. She encourages her two daughters-in-law to return to their home and perhaps they might find husbands. In very moving words Ruth begs to return to Judah with her mother-in-law.  

But Ruth replied, “Don’t urge me to leave you or to turn back from you. Where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay. Your people will be my people and your God my God.  Where you die I will die, and there I will be buried. May the Lord deal with me, be it ever so severely, if even death separates you and me.”

We don’t know what kind of love and support Ruth had received from Naomi, but it was enough for Ruth to offer herself as a living sacrifice.

And God honoured the living sacrifice of this Moabite woman whose name appears in Jesus’ genealogy in Matthew’s Gospel. 

We offer ourselves as a living sacrifice not to gain love but out of love.

‘We love because God first loved us’  wrote John.

CT Studd the famous cricketer and founder of World Evangelisation Campaign summed up his motivation for turning his back on what the world considered successful and valuable: “If Jesus Christ be God and died for me, then no sacrifice can be too great for me to make for Him.”

In my daily devotionals I am reading about Charles de Foucauld. He was a from a rich French family born in 1858. In his earlier life he was an explorer, a cavalry officer, and a playboy. After a dramatic conversion he gave it all up to become a monk but was unable to find an order that was strict enough in its practises. He was murdered by Muslim tribesmen during an uprising after being betrayed by his own servant. As a young man he was both handsome and dashing and lived a life enjoying all the best money could buy. He ended his days toothless and bald and living in abject poverty caring for others in a forgotten outpost in the Sarah desert.

I am sure you will also be able to recall many others who did not let the world squeeze them into its mould be offered themselves as a living sacrifice in response to God’s love, mercy, and grace.

That is of course a special calling.

I rather imagine for the most part our calling will be a tad less exacting.

But we do well to ponder on this call to be a living sacrifice as we go about our daily lives.

I am reminded of a little chorus we used to sing some years ago – JOY.

JOY, JOY surely this must mean, Jesus first, yourself last and others in-between, JOY!

Let that thought sit with you as you go about your daily business.

Let us ask ourselves regularly just whose agenda are we following, to whose tune are we dancing and singing?

Richard Stearns the president of World Vision United States, an international Christian relief and development organization wrote, ‘We are called to live a sacrificial faith - not a superficial faith. A sacrificial faith always seeks the welfare of others even when it is personally costly. A person with sacrificial faith does not always demand their rights, they fight first for the rights of others.’ 

‘As you come to him, the living Stone, rejected by humans but chosen by God and precious to him, you also, like living stones, are being built into a spiritual house to be a holy priesthood, offering spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ.’ 1 Peter 2:4-5

And so we say…

Jesus, what can I give, what can I bring

To so faithful a friend, to so loving a King?

Saviour, what can be said, what can be sung

As a praise of Your name for the things You have done?

O my words could not tell, not even in part

Of the debt of love that is owed by this thankful heart.

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